Entry: ::: Destiny has it all ::: Friday, February 10, 2006
hye there wonderful bunch.haha.like promised here it is - a new entry. again like usual, my title has nothing to do with the whole entry. well, guess i'm just a weirdo afterall. so bear with it. it's u guys who wana read aite. no offence. but if u guys kinda think like "oh gosh, this guy has no brains?" or like "my god, watz he crappin". then i suggest u guys just dun read. n DUN READ. NEVER READ. it's okay with me. i mean , maybe u just reached this blog out of curiousity or stuff, rite? but those who wana read, go on. really. its just my life - how "interesting" could it be afterall aite.
it's rainin outside now. wish i was drenched in that wet rainy athmoshpere outside. u know like WASH AWAY all those fuckin thing off ur mind. haha.wat a day its been. woke up at about 10.00am. str8 headed to my love, the pc. switched it on. chatted a while. checked my mail, friendster. yeah, that was pretty much befor i went to take my shower. kene mandi pala lak. d doc ask to pakai a special shampoo for my scalp prob. tah apa2. aix , but haf to do la. krg teruk plak susah.
turun down after that, see watz cooking. tgk2 my new maid dah arrive n dah bwat keje. gosh - i terkezut la. seeing sumbody u've never seen, doin work in ur hse. my mum lak waktu tuh tah ke mana. but i expected lah its d new maid. muka skema indon rite. n i knew sbb my mum told me the new maid will be arriving anytime after the 6th of Feb. Str8 pegi to my dining room. Tgk2 my dad came back dah from kl. I asked him when . He answered "this morning". ok. kinda interesting lah. coz lots happened in the morning when i was actually sleeping. ha ha. not long after. pegi jalan2 at my hse punya compound. u know, get to see the trees n pokok2. wif my dad, n driver as the guide. dah abis tuh, masuk umah.
my aunt lak dtg umah. she was doin sum work around this area. den she drop by to habiskan masa LUNCH dia. urm. den sembang2 lah. all of us had lunch. waited for nazim to come back from school. sesampai, everyone got ready. sbb prayers kan. pastuh g prayers ar. balik. my bros went for music class - sorang piano, sorang violin. well good for them lah kan, at least they haf sum skills of playin instruments (does piano count as an instrument? - well technically yes la gak kan.).
i on the other hand, crawled up to my room, on9 again. chatted wif emy n pnat. haha. confront emy la. takde lah. not really confront. its more of an askin session. bistuh. went down. "hang out" wif the newspapers, den makan roti sbb dah takdak apa nak makan. now i'm not feeling hungry for dinner coz of tat although it's dinner time. haix.
well, thats what i did today lah. dun be worried if u guys read the same thing for the next couple of days. i'm not doin anything - wat u guys expect.
urm. well, i did mention in the last entry i wanna try something new. more of a discussing sum topics that are relevant in my life. today i guess i'm in the mood of describing the topic of "Faris and His Friends".
Friends, well guess it's almost everyone's "thing" rite. I remember, when i was in primary i used to do lots of essay about friends - to name a few : my best friend(which is the most common), my friends, a person that i'll never forget. n stuff like that. thinking about it ; how life has moved so fast, i'm still puzzled - very actually. puzzled with whether , do i haf a single/or more friend(s) that really sincerely luv me as a person. i'm not talking bout this friendship come love kinda rship. i'm just talking bout a sincere friendship. I'm just asking myself. Do i have a friend that i can tell all my probs to?- when i mean all, its ALL. Do i have friend, which when i ring him/her up, the or she will come for me? Do i have a friend that really cares for me ?(it counts even if i don't realise). Do i have a friend which loves me for whatever i am?
Really, i guess personally i feel that having a great great great great friend is better than having a lover. I don't know. But i still feel that way till today. It may change. But I don't think that fast though. Sometimes, I wonder why people tend to be at their best - outdoing what they can, merely to impress their so-called "friends". come on, i thought friends are those who are supposed to be the ones knowing who you really are , in and out. not those kinda friend of "hey, y r u wearing that? u really don't know anything, do u?". get my point? i'm just blind. blinded by the world of today. We tend to think about people too much. We tend to think what people think of us too much. Why don't we just think of ourselves. We are sacrificing our very self, just to impress friends/others? Kinda lame for me. But its COOL. I'm the LAME one. hahaha. who cares.*just for the second : thank god someone created cyber space, where we can actually go beyond our skins*.
I'm not denying the fact that i have good friends or even regular friends for that very matter. I do have. Lots of them. But still, i have not found my best friend. Really. Honestly. NONE. ZERO. Not a single ONE. 18 years is not enough for me to find a BEST FRIEND. Try asking around, who's faris' best friend?. People may guess. But trust me, u guys are gona get a few answers. But all of their answers are partially true, true if the question was for CLOSE FRIENDS, not BEST FRIEND. So how could my primary school teacher ask me to write a "My Best Friend" essay when i was 7 or 8. Gosh - try me, but its one tough essay people. I've gota "create" a human just to describe my BEST FRIEND in those essays. Believe me, u guys will find different "BEST FRIEND" in different essays.. I'd just love if my BEST FRIEND TO BE is just like what i described in those essays .But yeah, things never happened like the way we "wished". haha.
it's hard to find someone that really can understand u. someone that you know u are free to be with. no hindrance or what so ever. i once quoted in the school mag. " A friend is someone whom you dare to be yourself." which i think is pretty much true. gosh. i really don't know how far i'm going. but okay, here's a tribute to my close friends : 1- NABILLA 2- PNUT 3- EMY 4- SOLEHA 5- PHAT 6- AMAD
- i know sumer gurls except one. but hey? who cares?.
n yeah, here's a small tribute to my 2 coolest juniors(walaupun deyre actually not my FRIENDS kalau tengok from perspective FRIENDSHIP, but they're the nicest JUNIORS i've ever had)
1- SHU 2- DIANA
guess tatz all. tatz d oni frens that i take as close frens. they are the ones that know stuff bout me. yang lain tuh, i am close lah. but just maybe GOOD FRIENDS. tuh mmg banyak la rite. lepas GOOD FRIENDS, baru comes REGULAR FRIENDS. ha ha. banyak pulak i make the category kan. hahahaa. but anyway. all of you that really care for me. thank you so much k. although kalau tak masuk mana-mana of my category, i still appreciate u guys. hahaha. well. my point of writing all this is : I NEED A BEST FRIEND. A BEST FRIEND WHICH I KNOW I CAN NEVER FIND. A BEST FRIEND OF WHOM I REALLY DARE TO BE MYSELF THROUGH OUT. HAHA.
Okay la peeps. dah masuk isyak d. boleh dengar all the thaipusam punya HAVOCness kat luar tuh. my hse is near that area lah. so its kinda jammed up. i'm doomed at home for the weekend sbb all the major roads yg diclosekan for Thaipusam is like surrounding my housing area. So, itu ar. I'll blog in again esok. So stay glued if u guys wana know. Drop sum say at the comments or taggie. Lurve y'all
