hye peeps. it's me again writing. well, it's past midnight now that i am writing this piece of entry. well, i guess it's just my 2nd entry for this year. haha. if i keep on goin on this trend. u guys will only haf 12 entry this yr. ye lah. one per month. ahahahaha. but nope, i think when life starts back, i'll update more. duncha guys worry k. i know stalkers pun nak tau gak watz happening wif my life. well, okay, frankly life is not good this new year. many things happened, that i wished, if im not here to experience, not that i don't want, its coz it's too harsh, dreadful. mood hasnt been tat well too. i just don't get wat really life means la. in thsi condition where i just which i can PAUSE life. PAUSE in a way everything's static. not moving. get it? life's goin on too fast. i'm breathless. too many things i'm not ready 4. i just fear facing life. but aih, yeah, i aint god to haf those super powers. gota live life, day by day...

i duno, life after shcool's really superly insane. when u haf nothing to do. u tend to think too much bout urself. u tenf to go low on self-esteem. start to get depressed over small matters. things begin to change n stuff. i mean when i was in school, i had too many things to think about, n i had fun doin it. so most of my time was taken away with that. gosh - i miss school.
being thinking bout "DEFECTS" of my life lately. Lots of them actually. I'm no good human at all if i really look at it closely. People may think of what they think of me from the outside. but that's just me trying to be "perfect". i'm really burning to the max inside. gos knows wat i feel. its like trapped with all ur feelings in u, where u cant express it all out or haf sumone to share it with. its too BIG, HUGE. n the worst part, u know, there's absoulutely NO ONE - NONE, in this world that u can share ur prob wif. trust me, my prob is huge. really huge. come to think day by day, being here simply sux.

but well i do enjoy life too. lurve my frens, n trust me, i'm missing them like mad. sumtimes i just wish they were rite in front of me. we had gr8 time guys, jokin n fooling around. trust me, we r never gona stick for 6 hrs a day nemore. ahahaha...kalau keluar pun stakat 2 jam or so oni. we shuld go out lah. i mean since, mcm matriks, college sume blum start. nnti dah start, i think it'll take months for us to meet again. haihs. duno how to cope wif that. ni baru 2 bulan dah kecoh d. hahaha

well january wasnt tat "fun" for me than the rest of januaries. i think the last i blogged was jan 13th. sbb aku tau tat day was hari paling aku boring. aku hantaq testi kat ramai org on that day too. anyway, back to my bloggie entry. nuthin pretty much happened. i g register for my driving licence on the 20th of January. Did the cramah KPP on the 24th, den amik test on the 4th of feb den g teori 3 jam bodo tuh on the 7th. Now pending for 3 hr practical untuk dpt L. haih. i'm so slow rite? gosh. but yeah. this too, is a fear for me. so it's okay, i'll take it slowly.

tak keluar memana at all. till today. since dec 19, i did not go out again to gurney. well today i jejak my legs back. urm but it was for the reunion punya so-called meetinglah. ada we discuss sket2 on the sales yg x memberangsangkan tuh. plan to boost it up. that's all. hang out till like aorund 4.30. sbb fu keong nak jumpa. i finished the meeting at around 3. so went walking around je. was nice gak lah. i mean sembang stuff wif him. den went home, around 5 sampai la umah.

oh yeah. nih kimi soh promote kan. u guys, pls give him support. g visit communities icemans9 at http://icemans9.forumco.com. jadikla member,n start posting ur thoughts. those are very fun bunch over there. tah idup diorg LIVELY ja. hahahahaa. tak like me. : > so go get sum CHILL OUT TIME over there.

urm...maybe i update la tiap2 hari, maybe not wat i did or wat, but u guys know. like normal discussion. maybe on certain topics or so. those in me. those topics which i feel it just suits me. hahaha. hmm.

so guess i haf to go now. its 1.06 am. i'm getting sleepy. better get sum rest. esok friday kene rush g sembahyang sumore. i'll update petang esok ke apa. so stay tuned sweet bunch. STALKERS, welcome too. i mean u guys rawk too. knowin my dreadful life, maybe fun for u guys, so enjoy.

peace

chao

lots of luv,
[faris~~]
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